Thursday, November 11, 2010

Outting myself...discussing the taboo... a survivor of suicidal depression...

Making the decision to speak about this scary and taboo topic has brought many questions to my doorstep.

Are you talking about it now because you are still suicidal?

What do you think God thinks about it?

Why didn't you do it?

What stops you today?

What triggers the thoughts??

How come you do not know you are loved? Matter?

So many complicated thoughts, I shall try to tackle over the next days.

I kow there are more people out there thinking about suicide than we care to know, admit, and face.

I hope that by my honesty about how I face the situation, I may empower others to face their depression and inspire others to reach out to help.

Stay tuned.

Friday, October 22, 2010

Get Out of Jail Free!

Today I am freeing myself! Today I am alive by CHOICE!

I am starting a new project today with the local Character Counts organization. We are bringing character based  life skills training to the newly paroled.Talk about new beginnings. I am humbled by the opportunity to help others begin anew.

What a powerful opportunity to see and experience the place of choice. Many of us will never know what it is like to be behind bars. Many of us have. The walls of a the psyche ward were for me as powerful as bars. Last year I spent time on a psyche ward, after I spoke about wanting to kill myself.  I remember the first evening when friends came to visit and I was not allowed to leave. In this moment, I can feel the shame, the fear, the despair. I can choose to keep my self in those feelings OR NOT!

Today I get to help others see there IS a way to start fresh. It is by choosing to do things differently. It is about just taking the next right step. We all face situations that are hard, overwhelming and often paralyzing. Well today I am choosing to step forward, inch by inch. Step into something new, something that I am called to do and something I know will make a difference in this world.

I am no different than anyone else. We all have our fears. We are all able to choose. Today I choose Hope, Today I choose Self respect. Today I choose LOVE!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Where Can Fine Artists Receive Career Help?

I have supported creative teams my entire career. Be it designers, artists, photographers, writers, musicians, the creative process is a powerful force to be reckoned with.

In my experience the most powerful support one can give is helping a highly creative person is to help them create the right structures to feed their process. Most creative people are challenged to stay focused. ideas popping up are alluring and often mire down the individual and hence they are robbed from seeing ideas come to full bloom. Very often they are bored before the idea really has a chance to blossom.

Helping creatives break down ideas into achievable actions and helping them to understand their personal process, is, I believe the most affective way to help them create.

Perhaps they need advisors on some of the protocols of the world, they would be better served by a coach who is there to help them find their way instead of telling them what to do.

Most creatives when told what to do, will generally shut down and retreat creating inaction and hence no results. Creatives are innately free spirits and are best served when this is celebrated.
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

When We Promise to Pray for a Friend, We Should Do It!

Many times when I am compelled to say, I shall pray for you, recently I have been asking. "May we pray, NOW?" It is an incredible thing to do it in the moment...It is fun to share time praying with people for them.

I also use a prayer reminder website,

it works for me...
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Reversing the Secularization of Eating

Six years ago after loosing over 200 pounds I made a commitment to say grace before every meal I had no matter where I was. I committed to never taking food for granted and always remembering the blessing food is in my life. After doing it with myself for a while I was drawn to ask others to join me as well, eventually it became a practice that others counted on me for.

Saying grace helps me remember the sacredness of the food, the hands that brought it to the table and the connection I have to God because of it.

When I am in public with others, be them friends or acquaintances, I ask if I may say grace. In the 5 years of asking, I have never found a person who said no. Most often the people say thank you for helping them remember to do it.

I am honored and privileged to share grace with others and feel the presence of the divine as we pause with the blessings before us.
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


Today I get to decide 
which structures will
refine and strengthen me
and which will set me free. fh

Personal discipline has brought a sense of pride and accomplishment to my life. Each time I decide to rest into a practice with consistency, I am blessed with results. Quite the miracle huh??

Most of my life I knew little about personal discipline, Meaning disciplines that would benefit me on a personal and spiritual level that is. I knew how to hold onto a job, stick to deadlines, yet a dedication to MY body and spirit eluded me.

I had no idea how to rest into structure, I never thought I could...when I realized I could with a little bit of help, I was then able to see I could even do it on my own. What a concept!

This morning's yoga was in the hallway of a nursing home. As I stood and did a quiet practice, I could feel my body finding it's center. My body was saying thank you for disciplining me. Thank you for believing I am worth the investment. Thank you for the results you have helped me feel. Thank you for tomorrow's practice, I know I can count on you!

Today I am free from the guilt of skipping out on myself and today I  stand knowing I am willing to be refined!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Prayer Gathering

Do you need Prayer Time? I DO!

As we open our hearts to the Lord, he shall make it anew. 

Join us for a 30 minute prayer call. We shall have time to share prayer requests, pray and to sit with God in silence with each other. 

Matthew 18
19 Again I say to you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven. 20 For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the middle of them.

Call in number: 1-213-289-0500
Password: 498649#

I know that when I pray with others my heart is made full by all the faith that is ignited as hearts come together...why be alone when coming together is blessed by God.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Building Strength

Day 4 Yoga - Strength

This morning I awoke to a text from a client who I respect greatly. He simply stated I should think about redefining my coaching practice to spiritual teaching. I almost fell of the bed! I could feel my stomach leap and begin to tighten all at the same time. His words stated a truth I have been looking to accept about myself.

I had been laying meditating and was preparing to move to my yoga mat. I had come to the word strength through my meditation. WOW! Building strength was a topic to explore. 

I could feel myself tightening with each step to my mat. I could feel fear creeping in and questions swirling in my head as I pondered the though of actually coming out and being with my faith in GOD in a more public way. As I moved to the mat, I could feel God's strength within me. I could feel God saying, "I have made you strong. You have been willing to be strengthened. You are ready."

I moved in a way that helped me feel His power moving. I rested into my strong arms and legs, my supple back, my breathe and I found a peacefulness that quieted my fears.

As my day moved forward I was given sign after sign that YES, this is the right path. And Yes, I am ready to take it to the next level.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Who am I being?

Willingness is opening myself
to unknown possibilities!
Yoga - Day 3 - WILLING

Such joy getting back into my yoga commitment! Today as I moved into my delightful yoga groove, I could feel my spirit rejoicing! It told me how happy it was!

Recently when I asked a client what needed to happen today. His response was. "I am going to honor myself by doing the rituals I have created." Ever since he said that to me it has echoed in my head.

Honoring ourselves with rituals, routines and practices that ignite our spirits, is what we are called to do, so we may BE who we are called to Be!

As I work towards bringing "Who's Helping Who?" into the world, I have been challenged to step into myself in ways I had not anticipated. I am being called to refine myself and to be the woman who balances asking for help and doing for others. 

Finding balance within the cycle of help and allowing it to fuel the work forward is my goal. Each day I rest into my spiritual practices of prayer, meditation and yoga, I know the results they will bring. Clarity, focus and a sense of God's love in my life can be counted on with the time invested. 

When I begin working with clients, the one thing that is a priority is to help them create practices that connect themselves to themselves and the Divine. It is the one thing I can guarantee to bring results that are lasting and grounded in truth. 

My dedication to my spiritual development fuels my daily work in ways that transcend words. A quietude that fuels the next right thought and the next right BEING ME!

Monday, August 23, 2010

100 Days of YOGA! I am Committed!

Here I am once again knowing I am needing to publicly commit to my yoga practice.

The last time I did this it helped me see how much power my commitment to my physical and spiritual well being had upon my life and connection to God.

It was originally inspired by my Friend Michael Bierut who teaches a design class where he has the students do and document an activity for 100 days. As he shared some of the classes work, I was inspired to do it as well. I was able to achieve the doing and the documentation was the challenge. I achieved 135 days of yoga and maybe 90 days of documenting???

SO this commitment is the doing and the documenting!!

I know that sustained action brings predictable results!

So Here is to the results I know my yoga practice brings, Peace, clarity and a sense of connection to God and myself that I fully desire and KNOW I can have!!

Plus science tells me it can and will affect my happiness, so what the hey...I want to be happy, so I want to do yoga!!

Here is a link to the scientific proof!! Science Daily reports out on a study at the Boston School of Medicine! Powerful and factual, perfect combo!!

New Study Finds New Connection Between Yoga and Mood

If you would like to join me, I would love to hear about your insights and the results of your commitment!! 

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Today I sold my wedding ring.

Yes, I needed the money and yes I needed to let go of the past, so I could move to the future that God has for me.

A future free of abuse, anger and fear. To a future full of hope, joy and God's infinite love. Today I let go of a way of seeing myself and I now see myself as God sees me, his precious child.

Today I love myself because, I know the love of Christ. Today I treat myself with respect and I am free from the bondage of my food addiction. Today, I can see myself as His messenger, because of the love and compassion I have been shown.

I am not a victim of others or myself any more. I know that the love Christ has taught me is how to love myself with patience, compassion and so very often a sense of humor. I am clear of my worthiness. I am clear that I am loved.

Today as I stood in the jeweler's office, I asked him to pray with me. He was a believer and easily held his hand out for me to hold on to. I prayed for forgiveness for myself and for my ex-husband. I prayed that we both continue to heal and seek His truth. It was a moment that I know, God heard my plea, as I felt His love envelope me. A sense of peace came over me as I cried tears of pain, joy and surrender to God's love.

God is working powerfully. He hears our prayers and will make us anew as we open our hearts to him.

Everything that broken wedding ring represented is now healed. It's missing stone, it's scratched surface, no longer represent me. I am not broken, I am whole within God.

For so many years I stayed in the marriage praying it would be peaceful. I twisted and contorted myself, thinking I could do something to change my angry husband. When I left on a night of violence, I knew that only God could change him.

As I began to realize my self worth as I lost a ton of weight, I began to see myself for who I am. I began to see what God wanted me doing. Helping others to turn their lives over to him. Turning to Him for everything.

Today I struggle financially and yet I know I will never be hungry, I will never be homeless. I will always have God's love. I may not have the lovely home I once had, but tonight I am safe! Tonight I know the love of God! Tonight I know Christ!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Spiritual Olympics: Embracing Pain as a Teacher. Goodbye Shame!

If we could embrace pain as a teacher, we would give our hearts an Einstein like genius. - Bernie Beaumont

My life is unfolding with magical magnificence, yet I feel fear, confusion, and even shame sometimes. Old habit, old beliefs...old pains...

Opportunities have been presenting themselves and I find myself circling the actions that are necessary to bring dreams to life.

Old beliefs can hold me back or I can recreate my beliefs so I may serve God's purpose for me. As I explore these old how these old beliefs came to be, I see people and circumstances weaving together to help me learn and move forward to recreate anew. 

Each time I find myself in a pickle...that is a situation that is asking me to change, I have the choice to stay or be made anew. I can be willing to feel the feelings, explore, honor and learn, OR I can run. Today I choose not to run. Today I choose my courage to face truths and know that I have the capacity to be evolved through God's grace.

For so many years I was ashamed of myself and how I choose to live my life. I was obese and stuck in my eating disorder. I abused myself and allowed others to do so as well. I allowed my low self esteem to tell me lies that I believed. And worst of all I allowed the gifts and skills that God gave me to lay fallow. 

God is calling me out BIG time. I have been in the spiritual Olympics these past few years and know that the training camp that I have been so bless with is calling me to the big ice. I know that as the opportunities to bring the concepts of giving and receiving help to the world. I am being asked to live what I speak. 

The past several months I have learned so much about my own strength as well as the power of love. The vastness of love is expansive in the face of pain. It's power is tenfold when we open ourselves to it. When I am able to rest into prayer and meditation I feel God's unconditional love.

Today I am no longer shameful. Today I face my quirks and evolve myself. Today I create a world of love and hope by stepping beyond the fear and old hurts. Today I am JOY. Today I am proud of the woman I have worked so hard to become. Today I skip, knowing I am free from fear because today I love myself and accept love of God and all those he puts on my path!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Transparency: Being open with what we have overcome.

Each of us has lived through hard, crazy and often unbelievable experiences. Those times in our lives that when you look back you just shake your head thinking, 'Did I really live through that?"

Last night I was at a business function and a colleague, who is successful and one of the most giving people I know...spoke how hard it was for her to reveal her trials and tribulations to others. How she just suffers through, alone.

I walked away thinking, how important my work is, to help others go through things together.

This morning I posted a prayer request for a friend living through a foreclosure. Many friends chimed in with support, but the most meaningful one, was an individual willing to expose herself and say she had lived through it too. She shared her lesson of "When you lose everything of monetary value, that is when you realize just how much God values you simply for being you. " WOW

A jewel of wisdom was allowed to shine bright because the courage of one person to share with honesty and compassion for their own journey.

I am humbled by unbounded faith in the willingness to reach out beyond ourselves to find connection to God and ourselves.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

"I feel ashamed to ask for help."

I recently interviewed several people who have attempted suicide and heard this exact phrase from each of them. I guess I was moved so much because I said those same words myself. Have you?

Asking for help in these times of gigantic giving has become stigmatized.  We as a world are beautifully focused on giving of ourselves in ways that are unprecedented, yet we have growing populations of people stuck in the cycle of depression, addiction and failure and are unable to see beyond it.

The numbers of suicide attempts is up and more alarmingly so are the successes. Additionally obesity, alcoholism, substance abuse, gambling, sexual addiction, and over spending are all on the rise. According to a recent study, more people admit to suicidal thoughts than ever before. More people are desperate beyond measure and yet cannot find it within themselves to seek the right help.

One woman interviewed told me how a friend, while visiting her in the hospital after her suicide attempt, said that he seen this coming. Staggering...what had he seen? Why had he not acted??

Herein lies the challenge. When interviewing the family and friends of people caught in the cycle of depression and/or addiction, helpless is the word that comes to mind. Does the person want help? Do they want out of the cycle? What can I do?

Our ability to ask for help in times of stress is diminished because of sense of self has been depleted. I was recently sharing my bout with a neurological illness and suicidal depression and my friend said, "I did not realize your were ill, I just thought you were drinking too much."

I felt shocked in that moment. Judged, misunderstood, ashamed. I knew this person cared about me and yet in this chasm of ignorance, my life, my value had been minimized.

Are you struggling with asking for help? I still do sometimes, and yet I know at a very deep level, my life does matter. I reach out and ask. I reach out and give. I allow the cycle to flow back and forth and some how I finally see the beautiful life I have.

Monday, July 12, 2010

The cost of following a dream...

Several years ago when I left Citibank to pursue my dream of helping others create meaningful creative lives a friend gave me The Alchemist.

It is the story of what it might cost to pursue a dream...asks you what are you willing to scarifice...endure.

These past years I have put everything I have on the line to bring the message of Who's Helping Who? to the world. Many would say that I am too brave...took too much risk, was unaware of the discomfort of those around me as they watched me endure difficulty.

Yesterday a friend who came to the gallery talk asked me why the work is so important, why I was willing to risk it all.

My response was simple. I want everyone to know they matter!! That they are worthy of receiving love, that they are capable of giving love.

I am willing to do all that I can to allow this to happen.

Recently a dear friend asked a spiritual channel about the work we are doing with Who's Helping Who? Her response looked at the work as a movement that is needed within this world. I have heard the word movement several times in relationship to the work. Each and every time I am moved to tears, knowing God is calling me to be brave, to step outside my self and open myself to serve a greater cause.

I gotta tell ya...this is HARD! I am willing clearly, yet there are the days, bill collectors call, something breaks, I need to go food shopping and I am humbled.

I know I am on the right path, and also know I am being strengthened with each serve in a greater way.

What are you willing to step into? What are you willing to risk something for??

Being the change or standing against them...

This morning I had a particularly interesting client call. My client works for a big organization that is focused on growing. As a result, many elements of the way they do business are changing. Many people including them feeling victimized and stressed to do all that needs to be done to sustain the business and grow it.

We are all often caught up in changes that we have a hard time supporting, yet know at some level we need to be able to understand the changes, so we may decide to be part of them or not.

Fascinating topic: Being the change or standing against them...

The conversation this morning focused on how far are we willing to go to keep a job. What are the beliefs that we forsake because we believe our voice has no power?

As we move through the world each day, how we decide what change to stand for or against?

Do we support more? Do we support less??

In deciding what to stand for, I know personally, I have to look deep within my self to know when I choose to create.

Work harder, more money,  less time with family, self and God?

What is the balance. What is enough? What is possible?

Interested to hear what this brings up for you?

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

The Joy of Exchange!

An unbelievable amount of energy was exchanged at the opening on Friday evening. I felt so blessed to bear witness to people opening themselves.

I know that each and every person who added to the wall were giving part of themselves and opening themselves to receive.  It was quite beautiful!

During the evening a woman walked up to me in tears. When I asked why she was crying, she said, "Somehow you have managed to create a place where people are willing to open up! I am amazed and grateful." Needless to say I too was moved to tears of JOY. I have worked for four years to create this and knowing that I affected someone makes it all the more important to me.

Creating a space that allows us to exchange ideas, hopes and dreams is the essence intention for the installation. Opening ourselves to what we can give and what we need, cracks the door for conversations that are meaningful and important.

As I continue to document, I hope you enjoy baring witness to the amazing spirit of giving.

Friday, July 2, 2010

It takes a village, I'll Say!!

SO much love in this moment, Just a quick dispatch to say I have never been more happy in my life. I know that God is moving through me and all those around me...will post images tonight!!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Duality: It is all here! Joy and Sadness

Quite the adventure I am on. I have worked on this dream for years. As it comes to life, I am feeling floods of emotions that are all part of this adventure and part of being willing to speak the truth.

I remember when I decided to actually work on this book, Kevin Carroll, Author and Catalyst, asked me, "What needs to be said?" Those words of wisdom echo through my head every time I become fearful.

What needs to be said is asking for help is HARD! Everything about it! Admitting it, understanding it, saying the words...ALL of it!!

When I remember why I actually decided to go on this adventure, it all becomes clear. I am passionate about people getting the help they need and giving the help they can!!

Getting an experience together like this requires such tenacity of spirit, mind and body, that sometimes I get so tired, that I forget this is all about asking for help... and I forget to...hee hee

I know that all the emotions I am living through right now are part of "WHAT needs to be SAID!"

Yes, there are people I am disappointed in... Yes, I had expectations... and as much as I know I need to let go of is part of this whole conversation that needs to be spoken about...

So should I not expect anything?? What is a relationship about if you cannot count on someone?? What are realistic expectation, are there such things?? These are the conversations we need to be having with each other as we build strong healthy relationships...

Sometimes relationships are one sided. We all know that...sometimes you are the one giving, sometimes the one receiving and every once in a while it is truly reciprocal...

So today...where are you?

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Meet Bernie Beaumont

 This hug illustrates Bernie’s joy of loving others! If ya want joy, Bernie will shower you with it! 

B is for Bright Bernie Beaumont, one of the people who continue to teach me about "Who's Helping Who?" Read about his generosity and JOY!

I met Bernie a year ago and was blessed by an immediate friendship that blossomed within hours of wonderful conversations about the power of God.

Bernie you see, is a carrier of buckets of joy, free to anyone who has the desire to be filled by them. His delightful humor fills the room easily. When he laughs, it is with his every cell. Not your typical guy!

Bernie was diagnosed with a form of terminal prostate cancer. Intuitively he knew the cure lied within. He went on a quest. He learned about energy medicine and has not stopped learning ever since. He sought alternative doctors, healers and spiritual guides throughout the world. As he journeyed and opened himself to new ideas, he realized what actually needed healing was his SPIRIT. He came to understand that if he opened himself to his spirit being healed, his body would be too.

Bernie, like many of us grew up with trials and tribulations, had failed relationships and the usual malaise with unfulfilling jobs. As he sought answers to his illness, he found that the scars made by these emotional experiences were the culprit for his physical ailment. He allowed the hurts to be healed, which he knows cured his cancer.

An avid learner, he seeks ways to keep his mind, body and spirit vibrant. He shares his wisdom in a respectful way and creates joy abundantly.

Bernie has helped me heal my spirit. He has shown me to love myself unconditionally and has inspired me to seek God in ways that astound and ignite my spirit. We laugh, cry, explore, pray and evolve in God together. His nurturing heart has helped me accept my worthiness and fuels my quest to help others feel theirs. I am blessed to call him friend.

Religion and Science: Finding Their Kindred Spirits

Agreed, it is not science or faith, it is faith is science, science is faith. At the core of each of the lies several commonalities from my view. Both have the element of theory and the quest to prove it be it in the physical world or the metaphysical world.

Our desire as humans to "explain" things holds together both the pursuits of science and faith. We desire to KNOW, to somehow use logic to make sense of things, yet as we explore deeper, more to explore is revealed.

Logic and reason seemingly flies in the face of faith. There is not a single scientist, engineer or mathematician I know that, once they have a theory, a sense of FAITH that it is provable, kicks in.

Theory by nature evokes the unknown. It is an idea that as some deep level of our being we KNOW to be true. The quest to prove it drive us to madness sometimes. Many times I have had an idea about how to achieve something, that has never been done. Have found myself saying , "I just KNOW it." Beyond logic or reason, our deepest intuitive thoughts are fed by the collection of our experiences that we have not consciously internalized the lessons of.

We move through our days, layering knowledge upon knowledge, to bring us to a place of knowing, without ever consciously seeking the knowing. This layering of knowing informs our faith in things, people, the world.
Read the Article at HuffingtonPost

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Meet Angie Lord

Angie Lord, a strong, resilient and brilliant woman whose generous heart nurtures and inspires all around her.

4:30 am, I sit in my safe warm bed in the home of Angie. I am filled with gratitude for God’s infinite grace to bring me here. I met Angie nine months ago. These nine months have revealed: God moves to inspire purpose, hope and love. 

I met Angie through a friend. Looking for a new home after I had spent several months with friends becoming healthy after a hospital visit, I was ready to move forward with my life. Angie had recently divorced and open to sharing her home.

We set a time to meet. We shared what had brought us both to this moment. We found a connection: hope and a desire to create anew.

When I went to pick up the key and make moving arrangements, we shared a bit more. It turned out we share many experiences that are similar, namely divorce and the desire to know what our purpose is. We both recently overcame illness and the darkness of depression that came with it. We are both on the mend physically, emotionally and spiritually.

These months have been filled with a gentle healing for both of us. We laugh, cry, work, play and often collapse in weariness. I have witnessed a woman whos love of life fills a room, yet is recreating herself, with the courage of a lion. She opens herself to the world and is exploring herself with a new sense of worthiness and wonder.

As I financially struggle to launch my book, her unbounded generosity has taught me that I matter. We continue to struggle with our purpose, yet we both instincually know we are here in this moment to love each other to newness.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

DAY 1 - Commitment!!

My 300 word project will profile people who have helped me do something, learn something or affected my beliefs.

I’m in the process of launching a book called “Who’s Helping Who?”  It is a book about the cycle of giving and receiving. I have worked on it for over four years. I have learned about myself, the world and my sense of the divine.

Through my work, I explore the affect of receiving and giving help and how people feel about their sense of self worth through it. I have interviewed over 200 people to come to this sense of calrity

I asked three questions to every participant.

Who do you give help to?

Who do you ask for help from?

What is the hardest thing you ever asked for help with?

Amazing conversations revealed the depths of spirit. It was an honor to bear witness to the truth of lives. I had the opportunity to see and feel such a vast range of emotions with each person. During each and every conversation, the topic of worthiness arose. We experienced the joy of giving, the shame of asking and the surrender to feeling their own sense of worth.

This journey has brought a vast range of adventures. I’ve had the chance to fully experience the cycle in ways I could’ve never anticipated. I have been helped to live through massive weight loss, an abusive marriage, a life threatening illness, suicidal depression, the death of a loved one and financial havoc.

Through this, I have helped save marriages, bring businesses to the next level, supported recovery from addiction and watched people blossom because they saw me asking for help as I gave it.

The stories I shall tell will reveal creativity, love, courage, compassion and joy!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Here's the deal. With YOUR help,
I will:

1. Launch a workbook with an interactive gallery installation.
July 2 - invites coming soon!

2. Launch a Blog and website that tells the story!

& 3. Launch a Global Book Tour. YUP have the nerve to say that one out loud! Already in conversations with buds in Birmingham, Boston & Chicago.

The results:

More people will ask for help with:
• Depression
• Creativity
• Suicidal Thoughts
• Relationships
• Addictions
• Personal Growth
• Finances
& Spiritual Evolution.

I decided long ago that, if I were to write about the cycle of giving and receiving help, I best be able to walk my talk. I could not do this book alone, it has been a massively collaborative effort. Literally hundreds of people from all over the world have helped me create the stories, supported me financially, spiritually, emotionally and most importantly, helped me garner the courage to bring this work to life.

I initially created the workbook several years ago and then became seriously ill, physically, emotionally and spiritually. It was put on the shelf and what I realized is that I had to learn the next level of asking for help. Literally had to ask for help to stay alive. I tell ya, it makes the kind of asking I am about to do, seem like a piece of cake.

So this is the beginning of a a few months of bold faced asking for help. I know these things happen in phases and really want to collaborate with my posse to bring it to life. The bestest and funnest things in my life have been done with others, so naturally this biggest event of my life should be done with you!

If you would like to collaborate on bringing the dream of "Who's Helping Who?" to life here are a few things I need help with over the next weeks and months. There will be more asks, I promise!!

1. Look in your junk drawers. Need small objects the size of a marble/quarter for the installation. Anything, buttons, machine pieces, toys, etc...They will be part of the interaction during the month long installation. Please call me and I will come pick up objects if you are local or mail to me by June 25th.

Florence Haridan
247 Lobelia Road
St. Augustine, FL 32086

2. Write a short passage about how you helped me and or how I helped you. OR Raise your hand to be interviewed and taped for pod casting.

This passage will be added to the blog as part of the back stories of the the book. Many of you have been formally interviewed for the book and others have contributed in other ways in my life. Please share. I need you once again... Or I have helped you in some way. Big or small, each exchange of help changes our it to me at or post it here.

3. Help me find locations to install the interactive experience.
If you are part of a club, organization or church and would love to bring a fun experience to them, I have created the installation to be movable. I have a formal description of the installation that I can share with you, so you have something to speak to your connections about. Call me, 904-612-3934

4. Sponsor the installation of the interactive experience. 
Estimated cost to take it on the road locally is about $200. To take it to your city... $300 + the cost of a flight and a hotel. A great way for your business to gain exposure. Bringing the message of the cycle of help is a message any business/organization can be part of. Your company/Org name will be recognized as a sponsor!

5. Open a door to a publisher. 
I have initially self published with all the confidence that a publisher is waiting for this ground breaking topic! I have the book out for first reads and will have some great quotes from other authors soon!! Call 904-612-3934 to share...

And last, but surly not least...

6. Prayer...
That I continue to have the courage to talk about this important and potentially life saving topic. Over the coming months, I shall share my personal challenges with asking for help, as well as interview others. I pray that we are able to share of ourselves so our victories may inspire others. Please also pray that I stay focused and have the self love to care for myself fully through this adventure. Please email me or share here...

Blessings all!

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